Crazy Fever Dream

01 December 2008 @ 04:03 pm

It is now Dec 1st and so offically ends our month long journey through NaNoland.

It was a fun ride and to all my NaNo buddies who completed this stressful and crazy task through this stressful and crazy month. I offer my congrats...it's not easy.

So, now it's over and all of you who burned yourselves out can breathe just a little easier unless you're like me and have finals coming up....then u can just devote all your effort to studying and finishing up those final projects and head into a much needed winter break.

I know I need one.

And so I offer my good luck to all who write beyond NaNo in any and all future writing endeavors...being a novelist is never easy and is always full dangers...rather it be getting through road blocks, climbing over hills, or busting through walls to start and finish something that a writer believes is even half way decent is a beautiful thing.

And if one thing I've learned from my many years of speed writing is that if you love to write...just write...it doesn't matter if it's crap or gold the more you write the better writer you'll become and one day you might actually find that you've truly become the writer you've always wanted to be and through all the crap and garbage you may have accidently written something fantastic without even realizing it...or you may have realized it, either way. lol.

And so I bid farewell to November.. it was fun finally using you to bust through my year long writer's block and open the doors to my creativity again.

Here's hoping the writing keeps on going long after this end.

Until next year.

Laters.

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

blah

Current Inspiration: nothing

Fall into Insanity

27 November 2008 @ 02:51 am

Game. Set. Match.

We started the month with a goal in mind...50,000 words in a month.

" That's insane!" some have said.

" Shouldn't you be concentrating on your papers!" others have exclaimed.

But through all the blood spilled as your characters get slashed up in fight scenes, the sweat when you're nanoing until 3:00 am with the heat turned up too high and your soo distracted that you forget to turn it down, and tears that you wanted to cry when half-way through the month you desperately wanted to just give-up because u loathed your story so much. There's a light you wanted to reach, one that is only there at the end of the tunnel. The goal of 50K.

And as much as you wanted to quit, as much as you wanted to just kill off every character and be done with it, as much as you wanted to scrap that piece of trash you've think you've written...you've stuck it out.

You've entered the jungle, sifted through the mud, picked off the bugs, fought off the wild animals and arrived here at your wonderful oasis at the other side and now you can sit back and enjoy what comes next...rather it be Thanksgiving or Winter break.. now you can breathe easier.

Because, that's right! You've reached that light and found that oasis! Yup, you've reached 50K!

And it rocks! It rocks a lot! ^__^

I am so happy to be done...I actually finished it too. Like, the story is done completely done...I never have to look at it again. Okay, the ending is really rushed... but who cares? I'm done. And now, I can kickback and enjoy turkey day!

This won't be my last entry...I'll prolly do one at the end of the month to offically say sayonara to NaNo until next year.

So, until then...I bid thee adieu.
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Final Sanity Perecentage: 28%
Final Motivation Perecentage: 72%

NaNoWriMo2004: A Turn of Tales ( 1,768 )
NaNoWriMo2005: Nadia ( 15,210 )
NaNoWriMo2006: Heaven's Gate ( 50,716 ) - winner!
NaNoWriMo2007: Chaos Maze ( 15,280 )

NaNoWriMo2008: Angel Wars: The Night Song ( 51,478 )

Yeah, that's kind of Awesome! ; )

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

tired

Current Inspiration: " Had Enough " - Breaking Benjamin

4 scattered illusions | Fall into Insanity

26 November 2008 @ 12:48 am

Week Four.

It's the final 5 days of NaNoWriMo and honestly I can't wait for it to be over.

Maybe, I'm just saying that now because I spent the last 5 - 6 hours Nanoing so I could try and get far enough that I'll have everything done before Turkey day. See after Turkey day is black Friday and my mom will be dragging me all over every which way for c-mas shopping so needless to say...the nano train has to pull into the station tomorrow/today..(it is almost 1:00am )...because after all that madness I gotta get down to some serious work on my next paper that is due the monday when I get back from Thanksgiving recess.

Sitting in one spot for long hours hurts my lungs for some reason. it's odd, so I better make this a quick entry. My story is starting to be slightly less sucky...although I am horrible at writing fight scenes. I know very little about sword fighting so it doesn't surprise me but still..if I ever write a novel I want to publish and it has fight scenes I totally need to actually research that..Of course, I'm hoping by then I would have enrolled in some sword fighting classes or something to get the full research down..but I digress..

I've reached my goal...in fact I shattered it once again..yes, I know..I am a goddess. haha..no,no...I am just your humble Angel of Night. Nanoing like a crazy person...besides, I actually had Nano music this time which helped me plow through my story a hell of a lot easier.

Music = Love.

Especially, when you hear hardcore rock songs when you're doing the intense scenes..it's like magic, man..I'm talking pixie dust...the whole nine. lol.

Okay, I seriously need to wrap this up. My lungs are feeling tight and crazy...oh btw, this week's quote is a few lines from characters in my story so fun fun...lol.

All right, I'm out for today...see ya'll at 50K!

Peace.
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Current Word Count: 45,057
Words until win: 4,943

Sanity Percentage: 25%
Motivation Percentage: 68%

Quote(s)

“ Angels, demons, and humans really aren’t that different,” Hayden started, “ They all create wars over petty nonsense and ostracize others based on the fear of power, and change.”

“ It’s disgusting.” Keiya spat.

“ It’s reality.” Rayne added.

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

blah

Current Inspiration: " Koi No Mega Lover " - Maximum the Hormone

Fall into Insanity

23 November 2008 @ 05:27 pm

Transition

Okay, so my hiatus is pretty much over...I've got the paper situation under control for the most part. So, I know technically the next week starts on sunday but my weeks don't start until monday...so my offical week update won't be until then. hahaha.

All right, so I still hate my story but I've reached my goal so here I am updating...I haven't updated it on the NaNo site yet cause I've just reached it and am still going..hehe.

NaNo has been hard and now we're entering the home stretch with only one week left until it is all over.

I hope next year I get a story idea that I'll actually like...writing that much in a month is hard...if it wasn't for NaNo I would've given up on this story a long time ago..so maybe there's some good to this after all. Oh, and on another note..I realized one good thing about my crappy job..it's actually taught me to type faster. Cause you always have to go so fast to check out impatient idiotic bitchy customers. So, that's one plus to my crappy job...that's helped with writing...heh. Go figure.

I'm stressing like crazy...I'm surprised I haven't broken out in hives from the insanity of this month...I can't wait for winter break. My brain feels like it's been trapped under a vice..and I have an oral presentation coming up after Thanksgiving recess. I'm not so good with oral presentations...I have major aniexty when it comes to public speaking...I'm feeling sick just thinking about it. And my last paper I wrote...I didn't like it. Oh, well...I hope the teacher does...Oh, crud I'm getting that doom feeling again. Okay..Subject change.

Besides, that there's really nothing else to talk about...I'm actually getting bored with my own thoughts now. And I should get back to nanoing.

la la Laters...
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Current Word Count: 35,210
Words until next goal: 4,790
Words until win: 14,790

Sanity Percentage: 32%
Motivation Percentage: 35%

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

bored

Current Inspiration: nothing

Fall into Insanity

19 November 2008 @ 03:10 pm

Week Three.

It's week three....and that means hell week...

I have reached a point where I don't want to go on...in the story that is. I could go on but I LOATHE the damn thing so much that I really don't want to finish writing it. I am currently on my hiatus where there will be very little NaNoing until Monday because I got that one paper due Friday then I've got a rough draft of another paper due on Monday. The rough draft is no big deal but this current paper needs my attention cause I'm having trouble writing that too. Ick.

Seriously though my nano story sux so bad that I just want to delete the whole thing when it's done so no one will know that I have written that horrible piece of trash. I had such a good idea in my head...then it came out all crappy. Oh well, I'll just make myself finish it...it's no fun when you hate writing your story..at least I'll finally learn to finish the stories I start despite my own personal feelings.

I mean I really enjoyed writing Heaven's Gate but yet I didn't finish that either...you know what, if I finish my NaNo08 story that I hate with all my being then I'm going back to finish Heaven's Gate cause that's just a shame if I have to finish I story I hated but never finished a story I actually liked. Okay, so I hated my writing in Heaven's Gate but I loved the concept and the plot....good times..lol.

Anyway, I'm getting distracted so it's time to wrap this entry up.

Mata ne.
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Current Word Count: 30,096
Words until next goal: 4,904
Words until win: 19,904

Sanity Percentage: 40%
Motivation Percentage: 40%

Quote: " It's fun to use learning for evil! " - Bumper Sticker

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

stressed

Current Inspiration: " Sakura Drops " - Utada Hikaru

2 scattered illusions | Fall into Insanity

16 November 2008 @ 02:30 am

The Graveyard Shift

Well, here I am working the graveyard shift and I have just reached my goal for the week. In, fact I passed it...hehe..Go me! lol.

Okay, even though I hate my story ( I'm talking loathing here )..I'm still sticking with it just to see that beautiful 50,000 at the end of the tunnel. And although, I hate it, it's easy to add stuff to it, I mean I know It's not the ideal situation at least with Heaven's gate I enjoyed writing it but not so much with this one. I'll be posting the name of my NaNo 2008 story at the end of this post.

I only have any motivation to write at night. It's kind of weird I know but I actually got the inspiration for the story from a few things. My obsession with night, ( my other online nickname is The Angel of Night ) and these old convos I had back in the day with a friend of mine...It was cool so naturally I hadda take that basic concept and morph it. Maybe, I hate it because I am now over 25,000 words and still have yet to get to the good part in the story.

Heh. Go Figure.

I actually would've gone longer with the typing it's just I'm getting tired. I mean, hello it's late. lol. But I always come up with the most random things at night. it's fun and I love it.

I also make a lot of typos at night too. Maybe, cause if you stare at the computer too long it plays tricks on your eyes. I have been feeling kind of crazy lately though...I've been watching these random shows on Cartoon Network that I love. One use to be an old Nickelodeon show that I liked but got taken off the air and now it's back and the other is sort of like a reality show only animated and way funnier. The randomness has given me ideas for story characters. ( Oh, the shows are 6teen and Total Drama Island..in that order...no mocking plz....lol) But more on that later. haha.

Well, my next goal isn't too far away..let's hope I can surpass it even with the paper I have due on Friday instead of it putting me behind.

Okay, it's off to bed for me. Until next time.

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Current Word Count: 26,122
Words until next goal: 3,878
Words until win: 23,878

Sanity percentage: 35%
Motivation percentage: 55%

NaNoWriMo2004: A Turn of Tales ( 1,768 )
NaNoWriMo2005: Nadia ( 15,210 )
NaNoWriMo2006: Heaven's Gate ( 50,716 ) - winner!
NaNoWriMo2007: Chaos Maze ( 15,280 )

NaNoWriMo2008: Angel Wars: The Night Song - ( work in progress...) -

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

tired

Current Inspiration: nothing

Fall into Insanity

13 November 2008 @ 02:35 am

Week Two.

So, we're in week two and the insanity is well...insane.

Trying to work around the things I have to do and things I have to study for is hard but well worth the effort. I'm doing fairly well so far and realized that my secret to getting far in NaNo is not to plan a thing before hand and just wing it. Making it up as I go has put me in a good place.

I'm already over 20,000 words and working my way to 30,000...well, my next goal isn't quite so high but u know..I try.

I'm tired and wish there was more hours in the day but I'm working it out. I'm just happy that I'm NaNoing just fine and doing well on all these papers that I had due. So, YAY! lol.

I'm probably going to have to go on a NaNoing hiatus for a few days cause I have my Ecology paper due next Friday. I'm going to continue my research on Friday and hopefully will have my paper done by the middle of next week or sooner so I can continue to attempt to roll in that 50,000.

Any free time I have is going to this so I seriously hope I do well. Things are looking up.

I just hope they stay up. heh. College and NaNo really just don't mix well. -___-O Although, this had made me want to work harder to get my schoolwork done faster so I can NaNo with the best off them. haha.

Okay, I'm done. ^__^

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Current Word Count: 21,112
Words until next Goal: 3,888
Words until Win: 28,888

Current Sanity Level: 42%

Quote: " Human beings have an inalienable right to reinvent themselves." - Germaine Greer

Current Location: My Room

I feel:

okay

Current Inspiration: nothing

Fall into Insanity

05 November 2008 @ 01:52 pm

Week One.

Good Morrow Fellow NaNoers! ( or NaNo watchers...lol )

Week One has been tough...I've had like a crazy amount of things to do on top of NaNoWriMo so I've been writing during any free time I could possibly get. I have a midterm this friday and a paper due monday. Yikes.

But I've been cranking out words fairly well...right now I'm over 6,000 words..which is pretty good considering this week has been crunched like crazy. Once those assignments are out of the way I have another paper due the week after that. Ah well...the more I have to do..the more I want to win.

Sum strange motivation I have huh?

No, I will not be posting my novel....I'll prolly never get around to posting or finishing Heaven's Gate...but I hate saying never so who knows..lol.

And I've managed to hang onto my sanity...at least somewhat...haha.

What's motivated me even further was I go an A- on my paper about the Forbidden City. I really didn't expect that..like at all..but as they say " u are often your own worse critic "...I think they might be right...Go Figure. ^__^

All right...to those of you who have school to worry about on top of NaNo...I suggest making a time schedule...that's what I'm kind of doing...and it's working fairly well..hehe.

I'll also be adding a quote each week of NaNo on here..or at least I'll try...could be meaningful, could be random, could be just one I happen to just like...who is to say really? : )

Good Luck to all! Don't Give up!

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Current Word Count: 6,785
Words until next goal: 3,215
Words until win: 43,215

Current Sanity Level: 70%

Quote of the Week: " Is it better to be feared or respected? I say, is it too much too much to ask for both? " - Iron Man

Current Location: Webb Hall - Computer Room

I feel:

okay

Current Inspiration: " Diary of Jane " - Breaking Benjamin

Fall into Insanity

24 October 2008 @ 11:34 am

Yo.

So, I am making an early post this year to let ppl no. That starting now...this is a semi-public NaNojournal...

All my entries from here on out from this NaNo and beyond will be semi-public meaning I'll pick and choose what entires I want ppl not on my friends list to see. Any past entries from before this year's 2008 NaNo can only be seen to friends. And I only add ppl as friends if I know them...so if I don't know you personally or through a mutal friend then sry sry...public viewing only for u...there are sum exceptions but they are far and few between. Heh.

Not sure who'd really care but I'd thought I post it for the hell of it. haha!

Only one week to go before it's time to NaNo!!!

Whoo!

Write On Bytches! ^___^

Current Location: Computer Lab

I feel:

tired

Current Inspiration: nothing

1 scattered illusion | Fall into Insanity

24 October 2006 @ 06:54 pm

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I feel:

bored

Current Inspiration: nothing

3 scattered illusions | Fall into Insanity

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